2023-12-31

I know

You see

For every 'yes' I want to say

Lifes throws me a 'no' everyday

Asking me face to face

Is this really the place you want to be?


I know its a vast ocean

I know there's a lot of ups and downs

I know

I know

I know

Damn

I do know

But this tsunami of emotions

Kills me from inside out


You see

I'm not very brave as people say 

I want to run away 

every single time

Hardship comes to my mind

But hey,

It's just too hard to leave it all behind

Isn't it?


I know its a vast ocean

I know there's a lot of ups and downs

I know

I know

I know 

Damn

I do know

But this tsunami of emotions

Kills me from inside out

And it's all my fault 

2023-11-30

This Mess

Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I


I need to control 

My brain

My heart

My soul

Even the blood in my veins

To stop reminding me of you

I'll focus on my life's goals

And boy

Oh boy

I know I'm not on the top of your list

So why should I be the one who doesn't want to quit?


Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I


Time is ticking

Oh 

I'm not sticking

To see where this might end

I'll pretend 

We both know

How this goes

And it goes

We take longer to reply

We talk less and less

Weeks goes by

And eventually

This mess will go away

Wait and see 


Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I


And this feels 

Like 

A sunset 

Looking for the next day

Hoping

It might

Feel

Okay

2023-11-23

Isn't

I'm no longer

Expecting

Anything


I'm just

Accepting

Everything


Life's truest form

Of letting go

No control 


Sometimes

It really is

For the better


Isn't, love?

2023-11-21

Let you go

Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

So ready to let you go

Now I'm no longer so sure

As I was before


I know I gotta let you go

Since you already let me know

That I'm not what you long for


Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

So ready to let you go

Now I'm no longer so sure

As I was before


But I do wanna know

Why do you keep me so close?

Why aren't you letting me go?

Is there something more?


Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

But now it's my turn to go

Cause 

I can't take it anymore 

2023-11-18

It feels so good

Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

To have a good cry

To look up

At the sky

And watch

The clouds

Pass by

And think 

'bout 

nothing


I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You


Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

It's fun

To look up

At the sun

See the light

Shine into my eyes

And think 

'bout 

nothing


I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You


Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

With a broken heart

To look up 

At the stars

See hopes and dreams

Come back 

And think 

'bout 

nothing 


I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You



(I'll pretend you don't have a clue. That you never knew. Yeah, it feels so good to be alone on my own)

2023-11-13

I want you

I want you

Even though 

I don't want to

Admit it

To me myself and I

Not tonight

But

It might

Be easier 

On another day

For me and my mouth 

To say it

Out loud:


(I want you)

Oh no

I want you.


2023-11-09

Enough

I'm lost

I'm confused

I'm tired of being abused

How dare you say that's my fault

For opening my soul

I'm tired

So tired 

I'm tired of it all

Tired of chasing

Happiness

Goals

People's expectations

Relations

What's that for?


I need some peace of mind 

I just wanna be still

Be quiet

Be alone

Be on my own

Be a pond

In the middle of winter

With nothing

Around

Not even a sound


 Saying that I'm not enough 

2023-11-06

Somehow

 Is it just me?


But somehow

I'm still here

Inside your car

Playlist loud and clear 

Just like my heart 

When I've said: let me know

when you get back 

And you sure did


But somehow

2am

Late night drive

Without traffic jam

You made a wrong turn

Another loud song

About

The things 

We left unsaid

Your eyes on me

I cannot think straight 

But this feels more 

than just getting along


But somehow

Time doesn't stop

You keep driving

And deep conversation

Keeps happening 

As some music

That I listen in loop

And cannot 

Get sick of it

'Cause you 

Got 

My whole attention


But somehow

Long drives

Aren't that bad

It doesn't hurt

The little things

Left on the thin air

Or the last hug

Bear it

With a quick 

Goodbye


But somehow

Even though

I'm pretty far

You keep me up at night

Waiting

For your drive to end

For the notification on my phone

That you got home 

Safe and sound

And so I pretend

That we are just friends


Oh my my my

But somehow 

I can finally feel

My heartbeat

And it's bittersweet 

Don't you agree?

2023-11-05

Back

Just so you know

I'm taking it all back


My life

My choice

My mind

My body

My voice

My love

My soul


Just so you know

I'm taking it all back

As it was before 


My life

My choice

My mind

My body

My voice

My love

My soul


I try

But i can't gnore

All those years

I've spend in tears

On the bathroom floor

Saying

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE


Just so you know

I'm taking it all back

All back

All back

All back

As it was before 


My life

My choice

My mind

My body

My voice

My love

My soul


bring it all on

I'm good to go

2023-11-03

Venice Style

Venice style 

Skateboard sound

Ocean smell

Concreat heat

Art on the street

Seagull screams

Palm trees

Biking for miles

Sunset scene

Sunscreen on skin

I really don't wanna leave


All I see

Is Venice style, babe

Venice Style

Venice Style 

Venice Style 

I'm all smiles

All smiles



I gotta go

Even though

I don't want to

But one day

I'll show up

So I can see and breathe 


Venice style 

Skateboard sound

Ocean smell

Concreat heat

Art on the street

Seagull screams

Palm trees

Biking for miles

Sunset scene

Sunscreen on skin

I really wanna stay

Just say

Venice Style

And I'm all smiles

All smiles

All smiles 


( got my heart upside 

down )

2023-11-01

Eyes

Travel light

Pack up tight

And smile bright


Even 

if 

you 

have

tears

In 

your 

eyes

D.

Girl, I was long gone

But then you came along

Asked where I was from

You changed my whole perspective 


Wait, what?


Five months later

Here we are

Together

Another Roadtrip

Just you and me

Another song we sing along

Another hike we dive

And another heart

That's been healed

By your side


Damn girl, this sure was effective

2023-10-30

LA

You see

I don't wanna leave

But I don't wanna stay

So you could say

I have mixed feelings

About you, LA

2023-10-27

Broken heart

Oh, after a broken heart

Never again

Not in this lifetime

I've said it to my body and mind


Oh, after a broken heart 

Never would I guessed

That I would fall hard

With citylights and stars


Oh, after a broken heart

Never have I

Loved so much 

being in a car

Singing and talking

It was enough 


Oh, after a broken heart

I don't want this feeling to come back

To haunt me again 

But damn

it feels good 

To be human

After so much pain


Oh, after a broken heart

I thought I've learned my lesson

I thought I was smart

But I guess I prefer to fall apart

I'm falling in love with the sun


Oh, I guess it's a good time 

To have another broken heart 

Let's go...

2023-10-05

Talk about it

Do I wanna talk about it?

Am I brave enough to let it you in?


I know I'm hard to deal 

With

But aren't we all

Complicated

To begin?

Humpf


Do I wanna talk about it?

Am I brave enough to let you in?

Where the fuck have you been?


You know I'm not used to this

We both know that this is kind of hard to miss

But shit

Why haven't we already kissed?


Do I wanna talk about it?

Am I brave enough to let you in?

Where the fuck have you been?

I've never meant to be so obscene


Shit

I don't even like you a tiny bit

Not when you eyes smile to mine

Or when I seek you hand into me

How can I go back to when we were fine

So I can hear you laugh one more time


Do I wanna talk about it?

Am I brave enough to let you in?

Where the fuck have you been?

I've never meant to be so obscene

But why aren't you under my skin?

2023-09-29

Tem certeza?

 Eu tô com medo


Medo de você chegar


Chegar no meu coração


Coração que já tá quebrado

Estraçalhado

Esmagado

Despedaçado


Te pergunto:

Tem certeza?

2023-09-18

Fav

I'm okay

I'm feeling fine

But maybe


I would like a bit of your time 

What would you say?

(I'm okay)


Can I call you mine? 

My beautiful mistake?

What would you say?

(I'm feeling fine)


Can I fake a healed heart 

just for you to break me apart?

What would you say?

(But maybe)


Taking so much space in my mind

Can I say that to your face?

What would you say?

(I'm okay)


And I bet

I can make you regret 

Ever touching my soul 

What would you say?

(I'm feeling fine)


Just so you know, babe

I know I'm your favourite name

To say out loud 

So what would you say?

(But maybe?)

2023-09-04

Divided

I'm divided

But still

Ignited


To start

To fall

To do

To jump

To heal

To break

To take

To make

To feel

To grow

To cry

To dive

To die


To be reborn

To be torn

To be more... like never before 

2023-07-28

Solitude

I was broken

I was undone

I was unable to think, breathe or feel


So I did the only thing I knew


I ran

Ran

Stumble 

Ran

And ran again 

Until I crumbled 

completely 


I can not describe

Is this feeling is really mine?

Did we intertwined too deep?

Over those 7 years?


Who am I?

Who am I?

Who am I?


I stopped to catch my breath 

When I looked around

Saw all the trees, birds and ocean

Suddenly

It all came back to me

An avalanche of emotions


Actually

What

I needed to see

Was 

Me.

2023-06-08

Anata

I do wish to say no

But at the same time

I don't wanna close a door

Just because I've been hurt before


But it might be

Just what I've hoped for


Oh no!