This Mess

Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I

I need to control 

My brain

My heart

My soul

Even the blood in my veins

To stop reminding me of you

I'll focus on my life's goals

And boy

Oh boy

I know I'm not on the top of your list

So why should I be the one who doesn't want to quit?

Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I

Time is ticking

Oh 

I'm not sticking

To see where this might end

I'll pretend 

We both know

How this goes

And it goes

We take longer to reply

We talk less and less

Weeks goes by

And eventually

This mess will go away

Wait and see 

Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I

And this feels 

Like 

A sunset 

Looking for the next day

Hoping

It might

Feel

Okay

Isn't

I'm no longer

Expecting

Anything

I'm just

Accepting

Everything

Life's truest form

Of letting go

No control 

Sometimes

It really is

For the better

Isn't, love?

Let you go

Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

So ready to let you go

Now I'm no longer so sure

As I was before

I know I gotta let you go

Since you already let me know

That I'm not what you long for

Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

So ready to let you go

Now I'm no longer so sure

As I was before

But I do wanna know

Why do you keep me so close?

Why aren't you letting me go?

Is there something more?

Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

But now it's my turn to go

Cause 

I can't take it anymore 

It feels so good

Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

To have a good cry

To look up

At the sky

And watch

The clouds

Pass by

And think 

'bout 

nothing

I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You

Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

It's fun

To look up

At the sun

See the light

Shine into my eyes

And think 

'bout 

nothing

I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You

Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

With a broken heart

To look up 

At the stars

See hopes and dreams

Come back 

And think 

'bout 

nothing 

I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You

(I'll pretend you don't have a clue. That you never knew. Yeah, it feels so good to be alone on my own)

I want you

I want you

Even though 

I don't want to

Admit it

To me myself and I

Not tonight

But

It might

Be easier 

On another day

For me and my mouth 

To say it

Out loud:

(I want you)

Oh no

I want you.

Enough

I'm lost

I'm confused

I'm tired of being abused

How dare you say that's my fault

For opening my soul

I'm tired

So tired 

I'm tired of it all

Tired of chasing

Happiness

Goals

People's expectations

Relations

What's that for?

I need some peace of mind 

I just wanna be still

Be quiet

Be alone

Be on my own

Be a pond

In the middle of winter

With nothing

Around

Not even a sound

 Saying that I'm not enough 

Somehow

 Is it just me?

But somehow

I'm still here

Inside your car

Playlist loud and clear 

Just like my heart 

When I've said: let me know

when you get back 

And you sure did

But somehow

2am

Late night drive

Without traffic jam

You made a wrong turn

Another loud song

About

The things 

We left unsaid

Your eyes on me

I cannot think straight 

But this feels more 

than just getting along

But somehow

Time doesn't stop

You keep driving

And deep conversation

Keeps happening 

As some music

That I listen in loop

And cannot 

Get sick of it

'Cause you 

Got 

My whole attention

But somehow

Long drives

Aren't that bad

It doesn't hurt

The little things

Left on the thin air

Or the last hug

Bear it

With a quick 

Goodbye

But somehow

Even though

I'm pretty far

You keep me up at night

Waiting

For your drive to end

For the notification on my phone

That you got home 

Safe and sound

And so I pretend

That we are just friends

Oh my my my

But somehow 

I can finally feel

My heartbeat

And it's bittersweet 

Don't you agree?

Back

Just so you know

I'm taking it all back

My life

My choice

My mind

My body

My voice

My love

My soul

Just so you know

I'm taking it all back

As it was before 

My life

My choice

My mind

My body

My voice

My love

My soul

I try

But i can't gnore

All those years

I've spend in tears

On the bathroom floor

Saying

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE

Just so you know

I'm taking it all back

All back

All back

All back

As it was before 

My life

My choice

My mind

My body

My voice

My love

My soul

bring it all on

I'm good to go

Venice Style

Venice style 

Skateboard sound

Ocean smell

Concreat heat

Art on the street

Seagull screams

Palm trees

Biking for miles

Sunset scene

Sunscreen on skin

I really don't wanna leave

All I see

Is Venice style, babe

Venice Style

Venice Style 

Venice Style 

I'm all smiles

All smiles

I gotta go

Even though

I don't want to

But one day

I'll show up

So I can see and breathe 

Venice style 

Skateboard sound

Ocean smell

Concreat heat

Art on the street

Seagull screams

Palm trees

Biking for miles

Sunset scene

Sunscreen on skin

I really wanna stay

Just say

Venice Style

And I'm all smiles

All smiles

All smiles 

( got my heart upside 

down )

Eyes

Travel light

Pack up tight

And smile bright

Even 

if 

you 

have

tears

In 

your 

eyes

D.

Girl, I was long gone

But then you came along

Asked where I was from

You changed my whole perspective 

Wait, what?

Five months later

Here we are

Together

Another Roadtrip

Just you and me

Another song we sing along

Another hike we dive

And another heart

That's been healed

By your side

Damn girl, this sure was effective