Singularity

Who would have thought?

But, why not?

2pm

We were walking and talking 

Never would have I imagine

Such news

Coming straight out of you

But now 

You got me thinking

How nice

You would look

Sinking 

Inside of me

A singularity

Text

Yes, I've received your text

Even the one 

from your girl

But damn boy

You're my ex

Not the one I'm having sex 

with 

So of course

I'll just ignore

This shit

There's nothing more

To it

So don't reach out

Not even in morse 

Not a sound 

One more time

Today 

I say

One more time

I say

I want you

One more time

Inside

Inside 

My mind

Since

All I want is you

All day

And all night

Until dawn's lights 

Hits my eyes

So I can seek your soul

To say

One more time

One more time

One more time

Until the day I die

I know

You see

For every 'yes' I want to say

Lifes throws me a 'no' everyday

Asking me face to face

Is this really the place you want to be?

I know its a vast ocean

I know there's a lot of ups and downs

I know

I know

I know

Damn

I do know

But this tsunami of emotions

Kills me from inside out

You see

I'm not very brave as people say 

I want to run away 

every single time

Hardship comes to my mind

But hey,

It's just too hard to leave it all behind

Isn't it?

I know its a vast ocean

I know there's a lot of ups and downs

I know

I know

I know 

Damn

I do know

But this tsunami of emotions

Kills me from inside out

And it's all my fault 

This Mess

Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I

I need to control 

My brain

My heart

My soul

Even the blood in my veins

To stop reminding me of you

I'll focus on my life's goals

And boy

Oh boy

I know I'm not on the top of your list

So why should I be the one who doesn't want to quit?

Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I

Time is ticking

Oh 

I'm not sticking

To see where this might end

I'll pretend 

We both know

How this goes

And it goes

We take longer to reply

We talk less and less

Weeks goes by

And eventually

This mess will go away

Wait and see 

Yeah

I guess it's time

To stop this mess (I'm not gonna lie)

That's you and I

And this feels 

Like 

A sunset 

Looking for the next day

Hoping

It might

Feel

Okay

Isn't

I'm no longer

Expecting

Anything

I'm just

Accepting

Everything

Life's truest form

Of letting go

No control 

Sometimes

It really is

For the better

Isn't, love?

Let you go

Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

So ready to let you go

Now I'm no longer so sure

As I was before

I know I gotta let you go

Since you already let me know

That I'm not what you long for

Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

So ready to let you go

Now I'm no longer so sure

As I was before

But I do wanna know

Why do you keep me so close?

Why aren't you letting me go?

Is there something more?

Oh no

I was so ready to let you go

But now it's my turn to go

Cause 

I can't take it anymore 

It feels so good

Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

To have a good cry

To look up

At the sky

And watch

The clouds

Pass by

And think 

'bout 

nothing

I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You

Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

It's fun

To look up

At the sun

See the light

Shine into my eyes

And think 

'bout 

nothing

I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You

Sometimes

It feels so good

To be alone

With a broken heart

To look up 

At the stars

See hopes and dreams

Come back 

And think 

'bout 

nothing 

I'm not thinking 'bout

her, him, it or them

Not even 'bout

You

(I'll pretend you don't have a clue. That you never knew. Yeah, it feels so good to be alone on my own)

I want you

I want you

Even though 

I don't want to

Admit it

To me myself and I

Not tonight

But

It might

Be easier 

On another day

For me and my mouth 

To say it

Out loud:

(I want you)

Oh no

I want you.

Enough

I'm lost

I'm confused

I'm tired of being abused

How dare you say that's my fault

For opening my soul

I'm tired

So tired 

I'm tired of it all

Tired of chasing

Happiness

Goals

People's expectations

Relations

What's that for?

I need some peace of mind 

I just wanna be still

Be quiet

Be alone

Be on my own

Be a pond

In the middle of winter

With nothing

Around

Not even a sound

 Saying that I'm not enough