2025-06-29

Pain

How do I explain?

So I 
Grabed my phone
I searched all night long
But all 495 liked songs
Couldn't do justice 
To my soul

What is
This feeling?
Rooted in my bones
Lingering 

Such complexity 
May it 
Be truly unknown?
Where's exit light?

Or am I afraid?
To find out
How my feelings
Have run wild

Unable to contain 
Years of disdain 
While 
I question myself...
Should I yearn for vengeance?

So I witched it off
Becoming numb
In the name of diplomacy 
Which is all we got
Before turning dumb
When it can no longer be undone 

I'm bleeding my soul
In the open 
With all the war ashes 
As background sound

Can you hear
My tears reaching 
The ground?

2025-05-30

May I

They knocked at my door

I know


As I felt

The sound of my glasses 

Touching the ground


I didn't saw my life back and forth 

But peace invaded in my soul

Like I've never felt before


So I know

They knocked at me door

2025-04-24

Backrub

2019

It starded as a dream

But

It's not 

How 

It has been


It's all fair

In a good nightmare 

Where people play

Truth and dare

Without a care


2025

You are supposed to be fine

Not ignite

Riots in my 

Heart

Mind

And soul


Oh still so bold

2025-03-13

Agree

Yeah

I must agree 

I really was too much 

Cause looking it back

You weren't enough 

To begin with 


Yeah 

I must agree

But at that time

I couldn't see

Cause you were killing me


Yeah 

I must agree

You let your greed

Take too much

Of me

Till I bleed

All colours

Of the sea


Yeah

I

I accept your plead

So please 

Take your leave


2025-03-06

Victory

Oh no
This pain is not tolerable

From deleting all the possible names I could have given.
From the child escaping too soon, though my thigh, coloring my drainage and my eye.
From the shame of killing us so that I could own my own name.
From a losing battle ending with no prospect, no future, but still refused to settle.

Uh oh
Such pain is not unbearable.

But I must say
Your tormentions  
Made all those darkest people that went 
Down on history 
Clap congratulations 
Under their grave
Screaming: victory